It's good to be spontaneous. When you give up waiting something, you can be spontaneous. Being spontaneous is living the moment to moment. You may find something totally new to you.

The last weekend, I had two spontaneous events and they gave me new perspectives on each of them. The first one is about my speech. I have been working on improving my speech for many years now. Basically, the quality depends on my preparation such as researching, scripting, rehearsing, etc. This time, I didn't do much of scripting and rehearsing. I had time to do so, but I chose not to. I wanted to make it in a different way. So, I did.

It worked well to some extent. It's not perfect thought. I am very pleased to see that happened. I found a new way of presenting my speech this time.

Rambo puts it well. The thing is that we all die at the end. It is not pleasant fact but it is true for every one of us. So, the question to be asked is "What do you live for?"

It seems paradoxical that if you really want to live, you need to be ready to die. In other words, if your focus is survival, probably you cannot really live. You need to trade your life with what you really want to do.

It's OK in a movie but what about our real life? Do we need to die for something? The answer is "no" in a literal sense, but "yes" psychologically. Most of us are living in a world where we can still survive physically whatever you do.

One of the barriers is conformity.  We want to live like others do. It is comfortable to do so. There is much less risk in that way. It is what your parents and teachers teach you.

The opposite way of living is to be a rebel. It is a tough way. Everybody else around you opposes you. You are alone. Then, who wants to be a rebel?

Not many. But still exist. People who have something in them have to be rebellious. Not because they want to be rebels but naturally they become rebels. They have to because they have something in them. It only happens something is bigger than hardship they may get.

So, do you want to live for nothing? Or, do you want to die for something? It's a choice we all must make at some point in our lives.

Your passport and driver's license are called IDs but you are not your face nor your name. You are not your fingerprint, nor your iris. You are not your nationality nor your birthdate.

So, who are you?

Most people identify themselves with something such as nationality, gender, or age. They want to have some kind of guidance. They need something to help navigate their lives easily.

The flipside is that they are limited by their  identification. It is like a shell that protects them and limit them at the same time.

In 2010, I went to Maui island to attend a seminar led by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I now see it as the very beginning of my adventure, which is still ongoing.

At the event, I couldn't understand what was going on at all. At all! I felt so embarrassed. I even thought my brain somehow got malfunctioned. Because it seemed very strange for me attending a seminar which I couldn't understand.

I had two options. The first was to forget about my attempt and would never do it again. The second was to do it again until I would get it. I chose the latter one.

After following the advice for a while, I still don't know what to do. So, I still do nothing these days.

Then, I noticed how much I am blessed. I do nothing and nothing causes me any troubles. At least at this moment. It is amazing! 

I used to have lots of things to do. And nothing seemed to be working great. Now, the situation is quite opposite. It looks like I am in a flow. I don't resist to what it is. Everything just flows.

To be honest, some part of me which is old part I guess, is a bit worry some. And I try to ignore it because I know it is an old me. I feel that I am getting into a new version of me.

The reason this quote resonates with me is that I am now heading to my heart from my head. That is very clear to me at this point.

It can be said a shift from left brain dominance to whole brain working harmoniously. I appreciate my intuition very much. I trust my gut feeling much more. 

I don't know about others, but as the quote suggests, it seems a long way. But at least, I am getting closer to my heart day by day.

I feel wholeness and relaxed even if something unpleasant happens from time to time. Those events come and go. I am not engaged in those events  seriously anymore because they will go at some point.

After writing my 'Stuck' post yesterday, an idea came to my mind and that is to write daily anyways.

The reason is that writing is definitely helpful to close the gap between where I am and where I am going. So, why not start now?

I know my writing is terrible....at this moment. That's a good reason to start writing now on a daily basis. And the topic I want to write about today is "impermanence".

Sometimes, I am in a situation where I am supposed to offer some tips for people who are stuck. Then, I would say something like this.

"Make clear what you really want. Set a goal and work on it."

It sounds very simple. Yes, very simple but it doesn't mean it's easy. I set my goal more than eight years ago. And I have been working on it. But for the last several months, I feel stuck. What should I do?