At the event, I couldn't understand what was going on at all. At all! I felt so embarrassed. I even thought my brain somehow got malfunctioned. Because it seemed very strange for me attending a seminar which I couldn't understand.
I had two options. The first was to forget about my attempt and would never do it again. The second was to do it again until I would get it. I chose the latter one.
The adventure is ongoing. I have visited many places. I have met many teachers and peers. I have improved my language. I even have started my own seminar, which was at this moment not successful through public eyes.
I cannot tell how I would have been living if I chose the first option in 2010. But, I am sure I couldn't choose the first option. I couldn't ignore my inner guidance. Sooner or later, my inner guidance would shout at me to follow. I know that through my experience. If I don't follow my inner guidance, I cannot really live. It is just how it works.
Life is an adventure. There is no tour guide available except my inner guide.