The last August in Denver at the TI convention, I met a speaker who had a strong presence on stage. I felt it. I felt her presence so big. So, I liked her as a speaker. However, I didn't know what exactly presence mean. I couldn't explain what presence was.

Eckhart Tolle's explanation solved my problem. Presence is presence of consciousness as I now understand it. That's why it is so powerful.

"Calmness of mind is one of the beautiful jewels of wisdom." - James Allen

Whatever happens, you keep the calmness of mind. You are in peace. You are in control in turmoil. That's powerful. Not easy though.

If you resit to what happens, you are not able to be in peace. Your mind shouts and cries. Your mind tries to change what happens. Your mind starts thinking about the cause. Your mind starts searching who to blame.

Osho is one of my favorite teachers. He is such a rebel and so powerful. He doesn't teach in a way  so called teachers do. He facilitates an environment where students learn by themselves.

I heard that Albert Einstein said a similar thing. “I never teach my pupils, I only attempt to provide the conditions in which they can learn.”

Probably, my style would be similar to them.

Suffering is self made. It is made by resisting to what is. You cannot change what is. But human mind tries to do it anyway. That creates suffering.

In other words, if you don't resist to what is, there is no suffering. The end of suffering. You may still have physical pain, but not suffering from the pain.

As he pointed out, suffering is good because it teaches you that you don't need to suffer. It is paradoxical. You need to suffer until you realize you don't need to suffer.

Dr. Joe Dispenza is showing up to me recently repeatedly. It seems I have got a new teacher.

I didn't know his decision to do what he does now after his devastating accident and I am deeply impressed by the story.​ He is definitely a great teacher for me and I feel grateful for this encounter. To meet a new teacher is like discovering a diamond. 

His teaching is very fresh with his scientific knowledge. And at the same time, he is talking the same thing my other teachers are talking.

"Boys, Be Ambitious!", said William Smith Clark. There is nothing wrong with being ambitious. But, it depends on the stages of life as Carl Young pointed out.

“Thoroughly unprepared, we take the step into the afternoon of life. Worse still, we take this step with the false presupposition that our truths and our ideals will serve us as hitherto. But we cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life’s morning, for what was great in the morning will be little at evening and what in the morning was true, at evening will have become a lie.” ― Carl Gustav Jung

I feel that I am on the way of another shift in a  huge shift experiencing since 2011. It gets into a different realm, which I couldn't even imagine at the beginning.

It seems a bit mysterious. And I am getting ready to accept it. Not fully at this moment, but I feel I will soon or later. It's very strange feeling.

It is a feeling that things I really want will come at the right time somehow. I don't need to worry about it. I don't need to hurry up. Because I know it will come.

Why me?
What did I do wrong?
Please help me!

These are the common reaction when we face challenges, setbacks, betrayals, deceptions and such. Problem is that these reaction don't help, they make things worse because your energy is sucked up for those thoughts. 

To create a better future, you need to surrender to what has happened and move on.

As we are spiritual beings, spiritual growth is exactly human growth. And there are stages, which we are going to go through one by one.

It usually start with victim mentality. Then, it moves to be a manifester, where you have certain control over your world. Then, it gets to the next stage, which is all about surrender. You become a conduit rather than a manifester. Then, finally, you become one with everything. This is how Michael Beckwith explains human growth.

I have been wanting to be able to write a blog in English. I wanted and wanted. That's the first step.

The second step, I tried and tried. I couldn't do it. I didn't have enough vocabulary. I didn't have enough sentence patterns. So, I couldn't continue.

The third step, I was surprised to know that I was writing a blog in English. It's not a big deal anymore.

It's funny. It seems when I forget about it, it came to me.