I read a post at Quora. (https://www.quora.com/How-can-I-improve-my-English-speaking-reading-and-writing/answer/Kevin-Hong) A Korean guy wrote about how he improved his English. It was a long and hard journey for him even thoughhe has been living in the State for a long time. The tips he shared were helpful to me. At the same time, I felt overwhelmed, not in a bad way. This is obviously a very tough path for me. And I am happy to know that. Why? Because it is so valuable. Virtually no one else wants to do the thing I am doing. This is my thing!
Honestly speaking, I am not sure how much actually I can close the gap between where I am and where I want to be. It doesn't really matter. Because it is not the destination. I am very happy to have this big goal for myself. It may sound strange to others but it is true to me. Having a big goal is a bliss!